Merilyn Sakova Vintage Forum

Emotional chaos

I realize that every time that I lost control of my psyche than I'd like to admit. All these feelings are not always useful, and actually unrealistic and stupid. I have a loving friend, we will even marry someday. And what do I do? Again I'm a very impressive young man somehow stupid like that. But it comes over a so suddenly. You just can not help it. And certainly not run away again and continue. But tell the truth, is both, not really. Because not everyone is so convinced of the pure truth as I do, but many do not prefer to know everything. But I think

Währe but it's time once again to provide clarity. I just do not know how. Especially now that finally some people want to spend time with us ... Since I can not but just go and say, "Hey ...... I'll find you the right class and you'd like to" better "want to know." You can not do?

Then I'll certainly get no answer. And such relations will split three I also never have to go ... Losses are simply dangerous, especially if not all honest. As "S." yes, it was not. No one is ever really honest, and certainly not to me. Sorry.

only what makes me feel this way? Again and again? Is this really an eternal search for something that I never had and never really going to do?

for love, as it was never and never will be?

total fulfillment, only without the bill with the "be normal" to have made of others.

I probably just need to learn and accept that you do not always get everything you want and it is certainly not the perfect man. Even if I wanted him so many times have. Actually that's not all here, too much sense, but it should also not good. In thinking further Währe really stupid because it's still all that sad, so what would be the same the next depression means. And I'm honest, I do not think more of that. I feel as soon as my head explodes. Drowning can not this feeling, because in the euphoric happiness intoxicated phase always follows the deep Absturtz. "What goes up, that must come down."

But even without alcohol's always been bad enough.

That's So now first of feelings, enthusiasms and all kinds of depressive emotional chaos.